These events have been extremely difficult for me. Some of you have known me for 10 years and I pride myself in being able to see the light…and the humor in life. My sisters and close friends would say I am like Pollyanna…seeing life through rose colored glasses.
I know it’s bad when I can’t even get excited about design. Don’t get me wrong….if I have heard this once I have heard it a thousand times….especially this week….that things will get better. I get it but dang right now……I am having a hard time just pushing forward.
So many thoughts running through my head….so many scenarios that maybe I could have changed…should have changed but didn’t. I swear being a creative is a curse. All of you practical people…..you left brain….logical humans who can see situations so much better than the dreamers….I envy you.
I can’t even describe what I am feeling because I am sure somebody would send the authorities over here to check on me:) The word despair comes to mind.
I am not writing this for sympathy….it’s not like I don’t know I am loved by my family and friends and by many of you that I have never met but have lifted me up these last months. I guess I am just mourning….and I understand that just has to run it’s course….right?
All I can say is hurry the hell up because I want the joy back in my life.
Thanks for reading….appreciating….commenting and sticking with me for this phase in my life.
This is me….raw…..what I am going through and I am sure many of you have been there. In fact I am positive I am not alone in these post divorce feelings. I mean there have been books written about it….and movies made.
I promise this will not become a blog about my life….heck no. This is “one and done”….. I WILL BE BACK TO DESIGN AND FASHION.
Yesterday I killed a spider running like a thief in my closet and I actually chuckled because as everyone who is afraid of spiders has said…..leave this closet….lock it up and never return.
There is still some laughter deep down in there:)